tired and bored

Physically tired and bored. I am not a happy camper.

The long weekend has come and gone. I didn't get much done, relaxed, masturbated. I was unproductive and without cheer. I wonder if changing anti-depressants will help.

strip club visit

Went to a strip club after a long time. Breasts, asses and three lap dances.  Women feel so good. Soft skin, a sweet smelling forest of hair, firm stomach, big spherical breasts, two round mounds of rump, soft lingerie. This is heaven.

Ennui

Ennui. That's how I feel. I don't feel a part of anything. I feel depressed, but not quite depressed.

Another depressing start to the morning.  But perhaps I will get something done today, starting the day by working from home seems to be helping to get a start. Better than starting the day off watching half an hour of porn.

Noah Smith has a great post on depression here:

http://noahpinionblog.blogspot.co.uk/2013/01/a-few-thoughts-on-depression.html

I like his 7 points. These I think are the most important:

2. Coming out of depression is the most dangerous time.

6. Depressed people may need a new "narrative"


Working with my therapist enabled me to build a new narrative, and become more accepting of things. It took time, but it worked. 
 
 

weekend goes well

Weekend went well. Didn't masturbate all weekend, nor did I get drunk, or spend too much money eating outside. Got chores done. Cooked. All very positive things. Wasn't overly depressed as well. Time to turn off.